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Saturday, August 28, 2004

"Sad Love Story..."

It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm. I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together. She said, "I miss you." I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home." She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine. I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go." Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat. Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!" Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home. Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night. But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station." We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship. We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go. She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this." With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face. She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore." I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?" I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?" I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other. Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain wouldl go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide. But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years's feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind. The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence. I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself." She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her. I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Book Review of “William A Smith of The Boys’ Brigade”

Sir William A. Smith was a great Pioneer of Boyhood. Over three million Boys have passed through the ranks of The Boys’ Brigade which he founded, and countless men in all parts of the world hold his name in grateful remembrance.

Sir William A. Smith was a born leader of boys. He also the eldest son of major David Smith and Harriet, daughter of Alexander Fraser, merchant of Glasgow. Sir William A Smith banded together several of his friends to form the 1st Glasgow proudly claims the honour of being the original Company but people dispute this claim of place and date, stating that in 1865 Sir William A. Smith formed a company of boys for drill and discipline. Sir William A. Smith was also a businessman, entering into his uncle’s business, Alex. Fraser & Co. when he was 15. Sir William A. Smith was an avid learner. He had the desire to learn more and though he was already a man of business at 15 years old, he did not consider that his education was completed. He attended a French class at Chardenal’s from about the middle of October and he got first prize at the French class. He also attended a Spanish class and it was kept pretty close at his work till end of year. He also took part for the first time in the Soiree of the Glasgow Caithness Association. He really enrolled himself in various classes like French and Spanish to learn more and more. Sir William A. Smith was a volunteer soldier in the Lanarkshire Rifle Volunteers, a very famous volunteer army battalion. He rose to the rank of an officer in LRV.

Although Sir William A. Smith was from a Christian background, he never accepted Christ until he is 19 years of age. After accepting Christ, He committed as a Sunday school teacher to teach boys about God in Woodside missions and thus begins his journey as a leader of boys.

The vision for The Boys’ Brigade came to Sir William A Smith when he served as a Sunday school teacher at Woodside missions. At that time, boys were consider nothing but a nuisance and nothing much is done to them except punishment whenever they get into mischief. Most of the boys in the street have nothing to look forward to and are mostly hooligans and loafer. Things are not better in the Sunday school Sir William A. Smith teaches in. Boys that go there were mostly forced by their parents, and most have absolutely no interest in God. Boys are rowdy in class and hard to control, and this causes headache for the Sunday schools commission and also for Sir William A. Smith. While William A. Smith was deploring of this unsatisfactory state of affair, a friend of his pop this question to him, “Can’t you make some use of your Volunteer methods in the Sunday School?” This question struck William A. Smith. He thought about how easy it is to control a hundred other men on a Saturday afternoon parade in the LRV and so difficult to control a handful of boys on a Sunday school class. He thought and pondered about it, and the answer that came to him was, “Discipline and esprit de corps.” He realized that in order to achieve esprit de corps, individuals must be band together in some association in which they have common interests, with some distinctive title or badge or uniform to mark it as their own. The boys in Sunday school do not usually develop the team spirit, because the common interest is insufficient. The attitudes of students there are generally bad, with irregular attendance, inactive participation, and are generally passive listeners. Thus, William A. Smith believes that the solution to his circumstances is discipline and esprit de corps, and work towards starting something which enforce it, which result in The Boys’ Brigade.

William A. Smith developed the method for instilling discipline and esprit de corps in the boys. William A. Smith planned to achieve his objective by teaching the boys elementary drill, physical exercises, obedience to the word of command, punctuality, and cleanliness. This would make the boys distinct from other boys at that era, and thus create esprit de corps among the boys. Organized games would follow, which William A. Smith believed that the outcome would be discipline and order in the Sunday school, and of course, the retention of older boys.

After several meetings with his helper, and officers of his first company, William A. Smith came out with the name, The Boys’ Brigade, the Crest, an anchor with the words Sure and stedfast, the motto, Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy Youth and the Object, “The Advancement of Christ’s Kingdom among Boys, and the promotion of habits of Reverence, Discipline, Self-Respect, and all that tends towards a true Christian manliness.”

The Boys Brigade was launch on 4th October 1883. William A Smith understood the natural of a boy very well. He knows that a normal boy always test the person over him, and plays every variety of trick to get the better of him and reduce him to impotence. If he succeeds, he has no further use for the man; if he fails, and is made to realize that the man is master, he is attracted by the dominant personality and is ready to follow with dog-like fidelity. He also knows that Boys have a way of producing a state of “chaos” but he having achieved it, They want to throw all their exuberant vitality into whatever they do but as it is sheer waste of energy to go on doing this where It meets with only flabby resistance, the excitement soon palls, and they go elsewhere. They infinitely prefer strictness to slackness, if the strictness is blended with justice, and an understanding of and sympathy with boy nature. As the William A. Smith and his helpers possessed this quality, and also showed interest in their work, their play, and their home, most of the boys stuck to the Boys’ Brigade.

With this understanding, as new officer ourselves, we can learn more about the reason of why our founder founded the Boys’ Brigade. We also Knowing his vision, and Christ great commandment of making disciple of all nations, we can go ahead to work towards and make disciples of all boys or our company boys. We also learn of his methods and the Boys’ psychological point of view. With all this knowledge and training through BOTC, I feel sure that B.B will go from strength to strength. I believe the officers which gone through BOTC can truly be a great Sunday school teacher to the Boys. Amen!

OCT Aloysius Ben
Squad 4 (Asst. Squad)

Monday, August 23, 2004

"which Fruit u want"

This one is SOOOOOO accurate!!!!!

Imagine you walked into a small hut by the river in the jungle.
You pushed open the door. In front of you were 7 small beds to the right of the hut, and another 7 small chairs surrounding a small round table.
In the middle of the table was a round food tray with 5 kinds of fruit in it.

They are:
a. an apple
b. a banana
c. a strawberry
d. a peach
e. an orange

Which fruit will u choose? Your choice reveals about u!
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a. if you chosen apple:
that means you are a person who loves to eat apple.

b. if you chosen banana:
that means you are a person who loves to eat banana.

c. if you chosen strawberry:
that means you are a person who loves to eat strawberry.

d. if you chosen peach:
that means you are a person who loves to eat peach.

e. if you chosen orange:
that means you are a person who loves to eat orange.





Gong gong one lar you!!! GET BACK TO WORK LAH!!! I bet u r hunting for me to squeeze my neck...well well... I am still hunting for the person who sent me this...! Hrhrhrhr

Friday, August 20, 2004

"Olympics: Singapore's Li Jia Wei through to table tennis semis, Zhang Xue Ling crashes out"

ATHENS : Singapore's Li Jia Wei advanced into the Olympic women's table tennis semi-finals after beating second seed Wang Nan of China 4-1.
Li notched up convincing scores of 11-7, 11-7, 11-13, 11-9, 11-8 in a thrilling match supported by her fellow Singaporean athletes and officials.
A visibly upset Wang refused to speak to the media after the loss, leaving team head coach Cai Zhen Hua to lament his protege's inability to handle Li's heavy and varied use of spin.
"The Singapore athlete played above our expectations...we couldn't imagine about this match," Cai said, adding Wang had not been able to handle the pressure of the situation.
Li will play North Korea's world number 40, Kim Hyang Mi, who beat Singapore's Zhang Xueling 11-7, 11-4, 9-11, 11-8, 8-11, 12-10.
China's remaining hope in the women's singles is world number one Zhang Yining, who easily beat Croatian fifth seed Tamara Boros 12-10 15-13 13-11 11-3 to book a semi-final clash against South Korean third seed Kim Kyung Ah.
Kim beat seventh seed Yana Tie of Hong Kong 11-6 10-12 11-9 11-7 11-7.

last hope!!! go singapore!! go!! go!!

Thursday, August 19, 2004

GCE 'O' Section A

GCE 'O' Levels (Hokkien Exam Paper)

Instructions:
1. Read the passage carefully
2. Grade yourself with the grading system at the end of the passage after reading.
3. Not that difficult, chin chai do lah !

Section A: Orrler Exeminetion (60 marks)
Question:Singalella why become rich ?

Koo zhar wu chee ay char bor kia, Singalella.

She got two sisters, but the stepmarder and the sisters all damn kuai-lan, so she quite zhia-lat oso.

Last time Singalella got own maid, but now she become the amah.

Everyday must cook lah, clean lah, simi sai mah bao-kah-liao.

If her sister say liak kar zhuak, she liak.

Tak jit zho kah tau-hin.

CPF poon boh. But then, kay piak eh ah-pek got one son call Ah Ming got party.

So he say, "oeh, long chong lai ah."

Singalella very happy because she never go party before but then her step-marder say, "Lee Mana eh-sai kee, this one bahru lu eh sisters wu standard."

Then Singalella must zho sui-sui for her sisters and step-marder.

Tap pai how, buay zhia, buay koon and buay pang-sai.

That night she only can wave bye bye and then she go back to the kitchen and cook Maggi mee.

Her neighbour came over and ask, "Eh, an-zhua lu boh kee party?"

So Singaalella kong, "I-wan, lau-bu kong buay-sai, so boh pian."

She never expect but the neighbour say, "Aiyah, kee lah, I give you money."

So singalella brush teef and zhang-zhui, chen-kor, after that look very different.
She quickly run to opposite of the beh-chia-lor, already 11 o'clock.

At the party, Ah Ming also quite sian because the char bor all boh sui one.

Dance floor even got one ah pek dancing.

Just as Ah Ming told himself, "Aiyah see-pay zhia-lat", Singalella came in.

Ah Ming straight away lau nuar.

"Wah-lau eh, see-pay heng ah, chee kor buay pai."

Ah Ming say to Singalella, "eh, sui eh, wah ai kah lee zho flen!"

Singalella say ok but Ah Ming like octopus, touch here touch there.

But then just it was 12 o'clock, one ah pek die on the dance floor.

He become ghost and tell Singalella all the good 4D number.

So after that Singalella quickly go and buy 4D, and then tiok tau-pio, zhit-pak ban.

So she pay back the kay-piak eh lau-kay-poh and then kah kee cho sen-lee.

Simi kuan eh sen-lee wah mana eh zhai.


Monday, August 16, 2004

Wow.. i can't believe it?? Singapore beat the china aka "china dolls"!!! i'm so proud of Ronald susilo!! he beat the world's number 1 badminton china player! 3*cheer for team Singapore!!! oh yeah.. Go go go Susilo!!!! hehex..


Thursday, August 12, 2004

"too nice"

It’s an Wednesday again.. I had a earlier dismiss from sch today. I felt tat I’m wasting my time in sch.. I ended my classes about two hours in the lab stoning at the projector then I went back home.. stupid mdm chia!! Give us assignment to do again.. I have no mood to do all the question on tat pieces of blue paper she set.. argh.. Nowadays she keep on pressure us about the exam marks and the GPA result. Then I was totally nuts doing so many project this week. Yep! she even say wat.. If we come late for classes again.. she going to do was.. she dun let us to take our S.C.T exam forever!!! Be half of tat.. wat kind of MOE educated teacher are showing to the students.. stupid right!!! tsk.. tsk..

Today I saw tat poor little Maid at NTUC again.. she look veri poorthing as u know .. every single food product she take from the shell.. she sure kana scolded by the “no brain plus.. her hair look like “shit head”.. plus she is a sucking bitch indian lady.. I saw her keep on scolding her own maid for nothing else.. I felt she was unsaved living in Singapore with tat “cow brain” house.. yeah..I almost wanted to scold tat bitch lady just now.. but… I can’t do tat at the public place.. isn’t nice lor..

Yeah.. I just finish doing Q.T on my bed. .today topic was “too nice”.

I understand tat we tend to be too nice. When people are doing wrong?? We must try to forgive them as well. Sometimes we are afraid to confront their behavior as we choose just to be nice to them. a best friend might slipping into an illicit relationship. I might ignore the situations and do not confront them… but. I felt tat I’m doing it!! Unsaved friend is trusting in good works for eternal life.. we remain slient about christ and his death on the cross. But.. “believers should not compromise obedience to god’s word just to be nice.”

Why do you think evil in yr hearts? – matthew 9:4

Some will hate you, some will love you;
Some will flatter, some will slight;
Cease from, and look above you,
Trust in god and do the right.

Being too nice can be a disguise for cowardice…
Hey Lydia.. must come BBQ lor.. okie?? Yaya.. saturday must invite along yr friend from the street!!! hahax.. I think tat gal must be veri veri hop hip looking.. yoyo! See ya there.

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Wow.. yesterday oasis was great indeed.. I have a lot of wonderful time with all my friends who invite by me.. and I also happy to see my deco team who really get things done on time .. hahax.. quite surprise as u know.. especially chloe.. she did our deco team.. such a power prayers for our team victory during prayer time. And Cheryl too.. I’m so impress abt her craft “leadership” whatever she can do on tat day!! I also must thanks scott and jessica for helping every single thing while we needed some help.. yaya.. I must really thanks to “Priscilla and addle” for their teamwork and ideas. I will not forget abt Jason and Raymond.. they really take their own day just to came down and help me along.. of cos I felt so happy for them!!! Yeah.. I must also thank “Daryl and Edward’s bro” too.. they manage to came down and help me to get things through.. thanks deco teamz!!! hahax.. Oh yeah.. I’ll not forget everyone who help me to set up tables and chairs!!! (I’m sorry to those ppl who help me yesterday, I felt I was in the wrong shouting at u all to set up tables and chairs.. please forgiven me..) but.. seriously.. u ppl really make oasis successful just to bring non-christian for our god!!! We had a happy time together and joyful day we had on tat one special “night”… oh yes!! Oasis Rawks!! Haha.. everyone agree it!! cool..

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Good News...

St. Andrew's (27) beat St. Joseph's (0).

Saints (there is only one Saints ) played a much better game than when they played against ACS BR on 20 July.
They looked sharper and fitter.
The play moved up and down the field but with Saints dominating the greater share of play.
Play centred mostly amongst the forwards.
Though lighter, the SJI forwards were able to 'out-pushed' Saints a few times in the scrums.
There was an anxious moment in the second half.
SJI kicked deep into Saints right hand corner.
The chase was on.
Instead of allowing the ball to roll to touch, a Saints player stopped it by back-heeling it before the touch-line. A SJI player picked up
the ball and went for the goal-line. Fortunately he was stopped just before he goal line. Played was then confined in that area for
some time.
Once again goal kicking was Saints weakest play.
2 'sure-shots' missed the mark.
The last try was converted.
Score Board:
1st half : 3 tries x 5 = 15
2nd half : 2 tries plus 1 conversion = 12.
Final score : Saints 27; SJI 0.
Yellow Card : SAS 0; SJI 1.

Saints U-14 boys will be gunning for the third Rugby Championship this year as the Saints have won both the 2004 National Primary Schools Rugby Championship and the 2004 National Schools U-17 "B" Div "Police Cup" Rugby Championship.

Go Saints!!! Go !! Go!!

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

"SARS bubblehead mask Outbreak"

it's an raining season month. i didn't realli enjoy my days because these days I having a high fever cause by "rainny cloudy" fault. is like whole day of my life coughing and coughing everywhere just to spread sars signal around. the sound of "cough" just to make harsh when I bringing harmful air and harmful matter to ppl come near me. sick manx.. maybe i need to wear "bubblehead mask" http://www.thehumorsource.com/pictures/918.html for myself. oh well.. I couldn't even control my lungs to breathe in and out it goes. I felt my throat and windpipe inside my neck burning so hot including forehead too. yep. i need to rest more but i cannot rest... cause i got so many things to do in my mind.. yaya.. i might control pissing off ppl.. oh well.. i'm sicky of everything i'm doing now.. i'm totally sick!!! help! help! help!


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